“Her normal life pleased her so well that she was half afraid to step out of its frame in case one day she should find herself unable to get back.” Jan Struther from “Mrs. Miniver Comes Home”.
I was a little worried about what life would be like after Spring Break. Would I be able to resume my yoga and writing and ten thousand steps? So far the answer is yes! And that was despite horrible allergies that led to a sinus infection.
I have also been so very tired and very impatient, a result probably linked to my thyroid. It seems every spring when my allergies start up my thyroid symptoms return. So far I have been able to push through my days but I go to bed really early. Most nights I am asleep between 8:30 and 9:00p. My eating habits are horrible. All I want to do is eat and eat junk food. I am not hungry in the slightest and I find myself foraging around the kitchen looking for candy or cookies. It has been really bad. It is a real challenge to distract myself from food. I am blaming this on my thyroid too.
Just knowing that I feel bad because of my thyroid helps. I use to think I was losing my mind or a really mean, terrible person or incredibly lazy. I have to remind myself that this is a chronic condition, that I will have bad days or off days. Yesterday I only walked nine thousand steps because I wanted to try and save some energy for my bowling night. It didn’t work but at least I tried something.
So now I have done what you are not supposed to do. I found an old bottle of lower dose thyroid medication and increased my dosage by the same increment my doctor usually increases it. And we will see what happens. If I feel better then I know I need to go to the doctor and get tested and officially get my dosage adjusted. And if I don’t feel better? I don’t even want to think about that.
In the meantime I will keep walking on the treadmill and working on my latest project (to be revealed in a future blog post!). I have also requested “The Omnivores Dilemma” from the library in the hopes that reading about healthy eating will actually help me eat healthier. The book is by Michael Pollan and I already read “In Defense of Food” and found it very enlightening. I will try to enjoy this last month of my school routine. Yup, my son’s school gets out mid-May and then I get to develop a new rhythm for my days, which of course will really be our days. I am looking forward to our days together. I hope my thyroid cooperates.