Patience

“With patience comes choice and with choice comes power.”

Another quote from Louise Penny”s “All the Devils are Here”

And the patience and perseverance have paid off. I have picked up the pieces of my life again.


Yesterday I went to lunch with a friend and then to Trader Joe’s. We all know I love me some Trader Joe’s. I bought a few snacks for football this weekend, stocked the freezer with a few ‘I don’t feel like cooking meals’ and the milk that was my justification for stopping there in the first place.
And on the drive home I cranked up the radio and found myself smiling for no real reason at all.

Here is my haunted house from Trader Joe’s. My son didn’t want to decorate it so I did! And yes I am totally getting the little turkey’s this year and using them as place cards.


Yes the yoga and meditation and walking have helped. And my word for the year “Embrace Today”. Funny how you pick a word (or two) at the beginning of the year and it really resonates at some point. I was finally able to shut up the voice in my head that kept imagining what I would say to M* if he ever tried to contact me:

There was the icy stare or cold silence option.
The puzzled “who is this” question?
The breezy “hey (cause you never meant anything to me at all) how’s it going” in a cheery voice.
The neutrally voiced “why are you talking to me, we are not friends,” statement of fact.

Once I started focusing on just today the voices in my head retreated. I wake up and think about what do I want to do TODAY? I typically pick one household type chore and then see what else appeals to me. And I do it.

It is a relief to climb into bed at night and feel good about the day and not dread tomorrow. It is good to stop the endless loop of the past and rumination on the future. To be back in the present moment. To sleep through the night again.

My gut is telling me this is a time for waiting. Change is coming but I need to be patient. Not one of my strong suits but the need to pause and be still is very strong at the moment. I need to heed it while at the same time living my life as it is right now. I can do this!

Lovely fall color in my Susan Branch bird vase.

A to Z Blogging Challenge: Z is for ZZZZZ's

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

While I do love my uninterrupted sleep, naps run a close second to make up for all those interrupted nights.  There is nothing better than dozing off on a rainy afternoon or in a hammock in the dappled area of the yard.  I love the way I feel after a solid afternoon nap.

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: Y is for Yoga

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

I had to stop doing yoga for two months after surgery last summer.  When I resumed last fall I couldn’t believe how good those stretches felt. I mostly workout in the morning but the movement feels just as good later in the day.  The important bit is to remember to do it mindfully.

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: X is for 'X'

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

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‘X’ being an unknown quantity.  I like not knowing what the future holds.  I could be living anywhere, doing anything six years from now.  Just thinking about all the possibilities takes my breath away.  It brings me joy to know I still have so much life to live and control over my choices.

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: W is for Water

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

While I wouldn’t say running water brings me great joy, not having running water does bring misery. I have had the experience of being without gas, electricity and running water at various times and being without water was by far the hardest to cope with. So today I am grateful for running water.

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: V is for Virtual Walks

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

I am lucky that I have been able to set up my treadmill so I can use my laptop as I walk (yup, walking and writing right now).  But often it is better to escape outdoors, tramping around some lovely, maybe faraway, certainly cooler, place.  I use both YouTube and DVDs to pretend.

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: U is for Uninterrupted Sleep

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

Between hormonal woes and being a natural night owl I seldom sleep through the night.  Whenever it does happen it is a cause for joyous celebration and boy does it feel good.  I suspect my future life will include a return to my vampire ways and the joy of uninterrupted daytime sleeping though.

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: T is for "This is Us"

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

I don’t watch much network television but I have been watching “This is Us” since the beginning. I love all the different story lines, characters, locations and changes in time.  Seeing glimpses of the future and stories from the past and how they impact the present.  I hope the script writing stays strong.

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: S is for Seasons

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

I always describe myself as a four seasons girl.  I need the pleasures and hardships of each season. I have always enjoyed shoveling snow, raking leaves and cutting the grass.  Front porch and fireplace living. I love the idea of existing in rhythm with nature. (But yeah, autumn will always be my favorite.) 

Happy A to Z April!

A to Z Blogging Challenge: R is for Reading

This month I am participating in the A to Z Blogging Challenge. My theme is my Joy (sometimes Gratitude) List and each entry will be 53 words which is my current age. Enjoy!

If I am ever stuck on a “dessert” island in addition to chocolate chip ice cream and cookies I would NEED books.  Yes, NEED. I can’t imagine going even one day without reading.  I have filled bookshelves in every room of my house.  I think books are the most perfect functional decoration ever.

Happy A to Z April!