Epiphany

Epiphany – a sudden striking of understanding something

As I get older I do indeed feel like I am getting wiser, I keep having epiphanies. Having an epiphany sounds smart as opposed to admitting to having a “Duh” moment.  I have decided to be kinder to myself so we are going with epiphanies, okay?

So I have been working on being a healthier self and I was looking through my kitchen cabinets and realized “man, we really have a lot of food”.   Many different flavors of syrup and salad dressing and different kinds of chips.  Boxes of granola bars and cereal and cans of soups and pastas for my son.

How did this happen?  Well, I know how.  When small child started school in addition to making him a lunch he needed a mid-morning snack and then an after school snack.  And the morning snack needed to be something that would withstand the desert heat and a small boy being responsible for it. And for some reason I thought he needed a different snack each day.  Plus different stuff to put in his lunch or for after school.  That explains the cereal, granola bars and chips.

The syrups happened because every time we went to Apple Annie’s I felt like we needed a seasonal flavor of syrup.  I wanted apple in the fall and peach in the summer and strawberry at the beginning of summer.  Ooh, mixed berry, that sounds yummy. But we really don’t eat that much syrup and the stockpile began.

And honestly I do not know what is going on with the rest of the condiments.

So now we come to today and my quest to stop snacking and eat healthier. And that is when I had my epiphany:  I need to shop differently!  Since I do 99.5% of the grocery shopping it is up to me what comes into the house.  Duh! 🙂

After some thought I realized what I had to do.  First, say nothing.  Second, shop smarter.  And third just continue serving all the normal junk until it is gone.  And then gradually and secretly change small child’s eating habits along with my own.  Not completely for him.  There will still be cereal in the cupboard and one type of healthier granola bars.  After school snacks will be fruit or carrots or yogurt and a homemade cookie or two.  He probably won’t even notice the change.

I am looking forward to some empty cupboard space and less temptation in the house. A person only has so much willpower. It’s true, we only have so much.  I read a book about it.  Made total sense.

Completely unrelated pictures:

The largest of three scorpions I scooped out of the pool.
I don’t know if this is poisonous but it looks evil.

The scary thing is I fished these all out of the pool the same morning.  Honestly I was a little scared to get in and kept peering around to see if I missed anything.  Desert life is not for the faint of heart.

Whole30 Week 3

Day 15

I am halfway done but it feels like I still have a long way to go.  Sigh.

I was going to go to the commissary today but with the eclipse I decide to wait until tomorrow. I look through the fridge to make sure I have enough compliant food to get me through the day.  Should be okay.  I am feeling quite lackluster about food these days anyway.

Day 16

I am so not in the mood to deal with grocery shopping.  All that temptation but it has to be done. I am tired and crabby and the return of triple digit heat is not helping.  On my drive to the commissary I have a little talk with myself. (Hopefully the other drivers just think I am on a hands free phone.)  I remind myself that it is just hormones going crazy and hopefully in a few days I will be back to feeling “normal”.  The only really critical task that has to be done today is shopping.  Dinner can be leftovers with a bag of salad and there are some Trader Joe’s meatballs in the freezer if something more is needed.

Lunch, I felt sort of snackie: snow peas and guac, hb egg, macadamia nuts and cold soup.

I give myself permission to take the rest of the day off.  I can color or work on the puzzle, watch a movie, take a nap.  The sky is the limit!

Day 17

Food prep day.  Happily I am feeling a bit better so the task doesn’t feel so onerous. I make the quiche of the week.  I use the kale and ground pork already prepared from the freezer.  I add a grated carrot for color and extra nutrients.  I found a half a bag of already cooked shrimp in the freezer and made a simple shrimp salad: finely chopped onion and celery, a bit of mayo and some dill.  I am looking forward to having something different for lunch.  I feel like I have eaten a ton of meat lately.  This reminds me to thaw some chicken for later this week.

Day 18

No “tiger’s blood” for me these days.  I didn’t really think healthy eating would be able to trump crazy peri-menopausal hormones.  I remind myself of my goals:  stop snacking, less sugar. I am accomplishing both these days.  I do wonder if I am still losing weight though.  I decide to add more vegetables to my meals and less sweet potatoes and yams.

B: quiche, four olives and a banana

L: shrimp salad, snow peas and an apple

D: leftover pot roast, the last spoonful of mashed sweet potatoes and roasted cauliflower

Day 19

I made myself a batch of “Melissa’s Chicken Hash”  for lunch today and found myself wondering if I would eat this if I wasn’t on the Whole30.  Hmmm.  Aside from limiting snacking and desserts (I have a plan!) I haven’t given much thought  about how I want my meals to look post Whole30.  I want to eliminate processed foods for the most part.  But I think I am okay with eating just about anything if I make it myself.  I started buying heritage flour that is grown and minimally processed locally.  I am adding more organic items to our diet all the time.  As long as I continue to incorporate more veggies into my meals I will consider it all good.

Day 20

B:  quiche and roasted cauliflower

L: 1/2 can of tuna in olive oil with 1/2 an avocado, last 4 oven fries, snow peas, an apple and some cashews

D: grilled salmon, grilled asparagus, homemade coleslaw

Took my photography class today, hardly thought about the Whole30 at all.

Day 21

I had my first cheat today. I chewed 1/2 a piece of sugar free gum during bowling.  I just needed it. Banish me from the Whole30 Hall of Fame.


This picture is from my photography class. My instructor called this “Chipotle Art”.  Where you take a picture of something ordinary and make it black and white and voila, art. 🙂  I was working on depth of field with this one.

The class left me very excited about taking photos. I know there is a lot more to learn but at least I know enough to be able to use full manual mode and have a better shot at getting what I want to see to appear on the end product. (Did you get the pun?  “Better shot”, haha!)

Onto to week 4 with a decidedly diminished lack of enthusiasm for food.

Whole30 Week 2

(I thought the spider web picture was cool!)

My Whole30 adventure successfully continues….

Day 8

I have a desire to weigh myself but move the scale into my husband’s closet.

B: Banana, three scrambled eggs, 2 slices of bacon and one small potato.  It doesn’t seem very healthy and I vow to eat more veggies the rest of the day.

Today is food prep day.  I clean a bunch of carrots, bake two yams for tomorrow and make the quiche of the week. Quiche of the week includes leftover taco meat, sautéed spinach and cherry tomatoes.

Quiche of the week.

I also decide to clean up one of the shelves in the kitchen pantry that has become a bit of a mess. It is full of “contraband items” but sorting the food doesn’t bother me.  Oddly the only thing I have really had a hankering for is cheese and crackers (Wheat Thin type).  Whatever.

Day 9:

Experiencing a bit of um, gastric distress.  Hoping this means my stomach will be flatter in a day or two.

Also spouse’s birthday.  I send him and my son off for pizza and I stay home and watch “Rear Window” while eating my tasty yam, chicken, apple mixture.  I had my son do most of the work on the cake so I wouldn’t be tempted to lick my fingers. I just put the cake pans in and out of the oven and got the cakes out of the pan. We froze one layer and E frosted the other for tonight. He did a great job!

It’s a baseball cake!

Day 10:

I have my doctors appointment today to get my IUD removed and chat about my uterine fibroids.  Since my appointment is at 11:10a  I prepare egg salad so my lunch is ready before I go.

I am really not hungry enough for dinner but I want to eat a little something when I take my calcium and magnesium pills.  Plus I don’t want to wake up hungry in the middle of the night.  I settle on an apple and a handful of cashews.  I sleep through the night without any problems.  But I am having weird food dreams. I wake up sure I had eaten some of my son’s pretzels. But I know  I didn’t.  Is there such a thing as sleep eating?

Day 11:

My stomach is flatter!  Not completely flat (yet) but decidedly flatter for sure.

Yesterday and today are the days most likely for people to quit according to the Whole30 timeline.  I can see that. It would have been very nice to eat lunch out either yesterday or today while running errands. That’s okay though my egg salad was pretty tasty.  Why don’t I make it more often?

B: leftover yam, chicken, apple mixture and 1/2 grapefruit

L:  leftover egg salad, 6 olives, 2 carrots, a small handful of macadamia nuts and blackberries

D:  pot roast (cooked in the crockpot, the smell permeating the house all day), mashed sweet potatoes (ghee, not butter) and steamed broccoli

I am pretty proud of how few snacks I have eaten so far. I am doing a much better job of incorporating fruit and nuts into my regular meals.

Day 12:

I wake up and I am feeling out of sorts.  What?  I had been feeling so happy.  I look at the calendar. Hormones dammit. I am not sure what to do.  Are my typical PMS cravings going to run me over?  Or will my decreased sugar intake lessen the impact?  I have a Mango-Pineapple Rx bar at the ready.  I spend the morning keeping busy cleaning the house a bit. Then decide getting out of the house for awhile would be good.  I have to drop off cupcakes at church for the men’s shelter dinner anyway.

I know, crazy.  I realize I probably haven’t been doing myself any favors these first two weeks with the temptations:  making peanut butter cookies for small child’s after school snack the first week of school(the first week of myWhole30), birthday cake, and now cupcakes.  My son mixed up the batter and I spooned into the tins and baked them. But yes, I had to icing them, without licking my fingers once!  No wonder why I feel a bit crabby.

Day 13:

My son and I had a wonderfully lovely day together.  We went to the mall, not a favorite or typical trip for us but he wanted a few more polo shirts for school so we went to JC Penney’s and found enough choices on the clearance racks  plus we had a $10 off coupon.  And then we browsed (for a full hour!) around The Container Store, a place we both love.  We found a few items and then he was hungry so we headed to the food court. I had an Rx Bar with me because I didn’t think there would be any thing I could have there but to my surprise there was a Chipotle’s.  And we both happily ordered salad bowls from there.

For dinner at home I made oven fries and we grilled burgers that were so tasty.  Hit the spot and for one meal at least I didn’t feel like I was on the Whole30.

Day 14:

I have to confess this healthy eating is starting to feel a bit boring.  Need to put some thought into the meal plan for next week.  I am still feeling a bit grumpy too which isn’t helping matters.

Onto week three….

Whole30: Week One

I decided to do another Whole30 as a kick-off to implementing “My Healthy Life Manifesto“.  The main goal of this Whole30 is to stop snacking and eating when not hungry.  I know I have a tendency to eat when bored or tired and the habit has gotten completely out of control. I will also admit I am hoping to lose a few pounds as well. I looked at the calendar and decided to start the same week school started. I am hoping this will give me some extra time for all that food prep plus no big holidays or major travel plans to make things more difficult.

 

Here is a summary of the first week:

Day 1:  Totally not prepared this Monday morning.  The thing is, school doesn’t start until Thursday. My bad.  So I eat a banana with some cashew butter and a carrot for breakfast and then get to work on some food prep.  I make hard-boiled eggs and clean a bag of carrots. And then I make my favorite quiche:

5 eggs

5 ounces of canned coconut milk

1/2 lb cooked seasoned ground pork (garlic powder, sage, fennel, s&p)

sautéed kale

Mix it all together.

I grease a 9″ pie pan with coconut oil and bake at 425° for ~ 20 minutes

The best thing about this recipe is you can mix up what you add and eat it everyday on the Whole30 if you wish. Some suggestions:  mushrooms, cherry tomatoes, cooked grated yam or sweet potato, ground beef, spinach, thinly sliced Trader Joe’s sausages.  Really anything compliant that you like.  This is so much easier than breakfast “muffins” and I think a bit tastier than a straight egg bake.

I eat a piece for lunch (along with a sliced tomato) and now I have breakfast ready for the rest of the week.  I also cook enough pork and kale for a second quiche and stash it in the freezer.

Day 2:  I have a solid meal plan for the day so it seems easy.

B: quiche, 1/2 grapefruit, one small potato.  I microwave the potato, let it cool a bit, dice it, then crisp it up in a little olive oil.

L: salad with 1/2 can of tuna in olive oil, 1 HB egg, cherry tomatoes and avocado

Snack: cut up peaches we picked ourselves and that need to be eaten

D: grilled steak, homemade oven fries and green beans

I am the only person in the house doing the Whole30 so many nights there will be separate dinners but tonight’s worked for everyone. Yeah!

Day 3:

I am not going to write every single meal down because that would be boring.  I am feeling rather tired today. I expected it but it was still a bummer.  See the Whole30 timeline.

Day 4:

 Note to self: be careful what you read and watch during these crucial first days of eliminating cravings.  “Howard’s End”, not a good movie to watch, in terms of food anyway.  Seems they were always having tea and cake.  Reading “Endurance” by Alfred Lansing was a good choice.  This book is about Shackleton’s expedition to Antarctica.  While there is a fair amount of talk about food it is items like seal steaks and penguin hearts that are mentioned.  And for a treat?  Fish paste.  No triggering of cravings here!

Day 5:

I seem to have skipped right over the “kill all things” phase and now “I need a nap” and “Why are my pants tighter” phase seem to be overlapping. Geez.

Day 6:

Grocery shopping day.  Halloween candy already?  (No more grocery shopping until after this is over!)  I eat a good breakfast but we have a bunch of errands to run.  By the time we get to the base I am getting rather hungry.  I get my son a sandwich at Subway in the food court and then scan my options.  Nothing.  So I eat my apple cinnamon Rx bar.  By the time we get home I am pretty hungry.  I nosh on sugar snap peas with a single serving size of guacamole while getting the groceries put away.

Now it is 3:00p and I am not sure what to do.  Do I eat lunch or try and tough it out until dinner?  I decide to eat a hard-boiled egg and make dinner an hour early.  It is taco salads so husband and son can re-heat the meat and make their own salads when they are ready.

Taco Salad: ground beef with homemade taco seasoning, a mix of lettuces, cherry tomatoes, 1/2 an avocado and salsa.  So yummy!

Day 7:

Today is one of those days that really are tough on the Whole30.  We are going up to Phoenix to watch the Cubs play the D’Backs.  We are supposed to leave at 9:00a for a 1:00p game because of the crowd expected.  Spouse gets out of work late (he is working extra hours for an exercise) so we don’t leave until 10:30a but it all works out surprisingly well.

B: banana, quiche, potato

L:  Eaten in the truck on the trip up is chicken salad (diced grilled chicken breast, dried cherries, walnuts and mayo), snap peas and a few cherries. As we walk from the truck to the stadium (about 12:30p) I drink a bottle of Zupa Noma soup. I bought a six pack to try out because they are Whole30 approved. I have the Beet-Orange-Basil flavor.  I finish it but I don’t think I would buy this flavor again, too basily for me.

Snack:  For inside the park I have dry roasted pistachios (in the shell) from Trader Joe’s and an Rx bar.  The game is exciting and I am not hungry until the seventh inning. I eat a few pistachios, but probably half or maybe even a third of what I would have normally eaten. That’s it.

D: We stop at a Five Guys on the way home.  I was prepared bringing a little container of my own mayo.  I get the lettuce wrap with two burgers, tomato and raw onion. No pickles because they are out of pickles.  What??  (They got a bad batch from their supplier and were waiting on a replacement shipment. Just my luck.)  But with the addition of the mayo I don’t feel like I am missing out on anything.

In Conclusion:

So the Cubs and I both win!  The week wasn’t bad at all and I am very happy that I have not been snacking on dried fruit or raisins like in Whole30s in the past.  I survived a busy day running around and a road trip.  A successful week one is in the books.

My Healthy Life Manifesto

Manifesto – a public declaration of intentions

I decided I needed to write down some healthy eating guidelines for myself.  That led me to thinking about how big a role stress and lack of sleep play in my eating habits and I decided what I really wanted was a healthy life. So I expanded my manifesto just a bit.

The last few months I have been reading a lot of books about diet, nutrition and eating habits.  Many of them left me feeling like I needed to have an MD (or play a doctor on tv or sleep in a Holiday Inn Express at least) to know how valid the logic/research/argument was. I was left to rely on my own common sense. And Michael Pollan’s “Food Rules”.  I love this beautifully illustrated little book of 82 rules.  I understand them, they make sense to me and they are easily followed.  By that I mean anyone can do them with a little time and effort.  No special pills or equipment needed. I plan on glancing through this book daily to give myself reminders of how I want to eat.

What I like about this manifesto is that it is set up for me.  Yes, you can borrow it as a starting point for your own but you really need to devise a manifesto that will fit your own life. Every person is unique with an individual set of circumstances that make up your own needs.

My Healthy Life Manifesto

  • Manage Stress
    • Recognize symptoms and alleviate
    • Schedule appropriately
  • Exercise
    • Change with the seasons/weather as needed
    • Swimming
    • Qigong or Tai Chi
    • Yoga
    • 10k steps and hand weights
  • Sleep
    • Nap if needed
  • Cultivate Better Eating Habits
    • Learn to eat only when hungry
      • Stop snacking
    • Change the way you shop
      • Farmer’s market
      • Less stocking up
      • Keep meals simple
    • Replace processed foods with fruits and veggies
    • Rx Bars for hormonal emergencies and travel
  • Intermittent fasting
    • Make sure you have broth on hand
  • Make everything from scratch
  • Eat at local restaurants
  • No guilt over being an introvert
An example of managing stress, I felt very peaceful when I worked on it. And I finished it!

So there it is, my Healthy Life Manifesto. I am not sure about the fasting.  It seems better suited to people who are obese and trying to lose weight but I have decided to keep it in my hip pocket as a back up plan if I am not doing well with controlling my snacking or the middle age weight gain continues.

My Healthy Life Manifesto.

I printed out two copies, made them all pretty and put one in the kitchen and one in my office.  I’ll be reading them everyday for now.  I am ready to feel not just better but good, really good!

 

Drink your Beet Juice Day

Drink your beet juice day doesn’t seem like a fun made up holiday.  When I think of holidays I think of cake.  But I suppose it would not be very mature of me to advocate a whole month of cake.  One needs balance in life so let’s start the month off on a healthy note so we can have our cake later, guilt free!

I have to confess I wasn’t sure if beet juice really existed. Sounds made up to me. Or like something you would see on a juice bar menu in California that hasn’t reached the rest of the country yet.  But I was drinking a vegetable juice blend one day and saw beet juice on the ingredients list. Turns out beet juice is pretty healthy. And if you drink enough your pee will turn pink, how cool is that?

So just for today add something healthy to your diet, something you would never think of trying, like Beet Juice!

Oranges

I was thrilled when we moved into our house six 1/2 years ago to find we had both a lemon and an orange tree that bear an abundance of pretty tasty fruit.  There is only one teensy problem.  While I like oranges I seldom eat them.  I have always preferred clementines (or tangerines as they were called for most of my life).  I finally realized it isn’t the taste but how hard oranges are to peel.

Yesterday I had an epiphany, why not eat oranges like grapefruit?  For an after school snack I cut an orange in half and segmented it like a grapefruit.  Easy-peasy.  My son ate half and I ate half and then we went and picked another orange and shared that one too.  And we shared another one with breakfast this morning.

So much quicker and less messy than trying to peel our thick rinded oranges.  Is this one of those secret tips that everyone knew about but me?

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Now I love the idea of going out to the yard and picking a piece of fruit to eat right then!

 

Whole 30 – Day 15

I was making zero progress on losing five pounds or eliminating grains and dairy to see if that helped with the joint pain. My snacking was completely out of control. As in I would eat breakfast and then grab a cookie for dessert. I was eating junk food all day long. Pathetic.

I had to make a decision: give up or do the Whole30 again, sigh.  Bowling is starting and that really hurts my hands.  And I decided I was too young to just go ahead and let the weight creep up.  So Whole30 it was.

Then I dithered about the start date.  And then my husband announced they were doing the Whole30 again at work starting right after Labor Day.  Wait, that would overlap my 50th birthday and there was no way I wasn’t eating cake on the big day!  Looking at the calendar I realized I needed to start right away to be done before starting my next year of life.

With no real planning or grocery shopping I jumped in.  Having done the Whole30 before I knew what to expect. I needed to survive the first seven to ten days. I didn’t worry about how many yams or sweet potatoes I ate. And I didn’t sweat the snacking.  As long as I only ate compliant foods I was going to consider the first week a success. I would deal with snacking the second week.

I  also made a vow to be very kind to myself.  My biggest side effect the first week was fatigue.  I slept more and several afternoons found me on the couch watching a movie.  I kept my to do lists short.  I didn’t even attempt to tackle anything I knew would be frustrating.

Here are my non-food rewards for that difficult first week:

Flowers from Trader Joe’s.  (Instead of the dark chocolate covered almonds I really wanted.)

A new bottle of nailpolish. Revlon’s ‘Dreamer’, a pretty sky blue,  completely new shade for me.

Rereading the book “Rebecca”.  Scariest non-scary book ever!  Mrs. Danvers gives me the heebie jeebies.  I feel bad for my fellow introvert, the second Mrs. De Winter who I have decided is named Jane.  What do you think her first name is?

Watching my favorite summer movie: “Rear Window”.  Jimmy Stewart, Grace Kelly, Thelma Ritter and Alfred Hitchcock, the best combo ever!  Plus I like to be reminded that other places get hot in the summer too, and poor Jimmy not only doesn’t have a pool or a/c but a cast on his leg. Talk about summer misery!

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Non-food Whole30 rewards!

So I survived the first fifteen days.  Of course it is easy to be cavalier about it with it now in the rear view mirror. I am keeping my eye on the goal now, not so much the weight but eliminating snacking and seeing how my hands feel after bowling this week. I am pretty sure the joint pain is caused by a lack of estrogen from going into menopause so I don’t know if diet can help in anyway but either way it will be good to know.

Snacking hasn’t been too bad.  The first week I twice ate a mid-morning banana before running errands that I knew would end close to lunchtime.  Most days I ate an after school snack with my son:  celery w/cashew butter, an Rx Bar, a few olives.  I munched a few celery sticks while preparing dinner if I am starving.  Nothing too horrendous.  But the last few days I haven’t snacked at all. Yeah!

And now I am halfway done. I am already thinking about the reintroduction phase which I have failed so miserably in the past.  I am hoping the fact that my birthday is Day 31 won’t completely derail my reintroduction. After my birthday eating Whole30 between reintroduction days won’t be that big a deal as my husband wants to stay Whole30 until his doctor’s appointment the first week of October anyway.

Hopefully what will be a big deal is how good I feel!

The Perfect Storm

The last few days I have been miserably unhappy. The “I want to move to Canada and live in a one room cabin with my books and needlepoint, grow a garden and raise chickens and never see another living soul again” type of unhappy.

So last night I watched “The Hours” so I could spend some time with others who felt miserable and then I considered my situation. What exactly was the problem?  Food reactions?  Hormonal? Thyroid?  Motherhood burnout? Some combination thereof?  A quadruple whammy would explain my recent spate of  extreme overreactions.  Here’s a somewhat vague summary of what has been going on:

  1.  I feel grumpy, bored, frustrated and angry all at the same time.  Motherhood seemed the stupidest thing I had ever done closely followed by living in the desert. I have zero patience for any type of stupidity. Quite the problem with a small male child in the house.
  2. My seasonal allergies which were improving are once again worsening.  My insomnia has returned and being awake at 0400 is so not a good thing.
  3. I am convinced my 8 year old is trying to drive me crazy.  After say,  ten days walking past his shoes on the stairs he cannot believe it when I have a meltdown about the damn shoes.  And seriously how many years does one have to remind a person to brush their teeth before they get it? In my mind five years is enough.  The list goes on and on and on.
  4. Plus my check engine light kept going off and on and I needed to get my emissions test done.

 

So I did what every person does when they fear they are losing their mind:  I trolled the internet for information and ideas.  Here is what I learned.

 

1/2.  My post Whole30 reintroduction plan came to a screeching halt on Mother’s Day.  Plus I was really only concerned with grains, possible just wheat.  I learned I need to see if dairy is making me crazy, angry, unhappy, depressed and generally miserable too.  I am not going to do the Whole30 again but for the next week I am going to avoid all grains and dairy.  If there is a problem I should feel better after a few days.  Then I will have to slowly and painstakingly rule out (or in) foods one at a time.  The good news is I can make fruit juice popsicles and eat potato chips.  I thought I could eat dark chocolate too but all the stuff I have on hand has the potential to have some sort of milk product in it.  This could be a real problem.

As for living in the desert I am no longer going to be the martyr trying to save money by keeping the a/c set at 78°.   So right now the a/c is set at a very comfortable, (almost chilly!)  72°.  The electric bill be damned!  I also bought new curtains for my south facing bedroom and added a dark blue liner to really block the sun.  (Actually it was a little too dark during the day so I took the liner off one of the panels this morning and I will see how I like that tonight and tomorrow morning.)

 

3.  Turns out lots of eight year olds are driving their parents crazy.  Many have no interest in hygiene.  This phase typically lasts four to six years.  Okay.  So this means I have years ahead of me saying every single day “brush your teeth, use soap, wash your hair.”  See, this is what makes Canada look good.  But apparently it also drives most parents crazy so I am not alone, not that this knowledge is particularly helpful. But it is good to know my reaction is normal.

Also seems around this age boys get a little hormone spurt of testosterone that makes them stupid.  It is utterly useless to expect any type of common sense to prevail.  They have zero awareness of pretty much everything right now.  But this too will pass and at some point they become caring, reasonable human beings again, complete with an awareness of their surroundings.  Since I know my son has a good heart and an acceptable level of  intelligence I will l just have to wait out this phase as best I can.

To help with the waiting I got some tips from Zen Habits on patience and letting go of expectations.  I wrote them down on a piece of paper and I keep it with me at all times.  When I sense I am turning into the Nagging Ogre (think Incredible Hulk!) I pull the list out and read it.  If nothing else it  gives my son a chance to escape.

 

4.  I bought a new gas cap.  My car passed emissions and the check engine light has not come back on (yet).  Hopefully if it does come back on it will be after I have a grip on my reactions once again.

 

Seriously, I could write a book about everything going on in my head and heart right now, as well as probable causes and solutions.  I feel like I am entering a survival mode parenting period.  And that is okay.  Everybody has them, they don’t last forever, and everyone will survive.  Letting him watch more tv, play more video games and eat an apple for dinner is not the end of the world.  I actual think it will do us both good if I become less responsible for a while, take a break from being such a strict grown up.  Summer is coming and it is time to ease up and enjoy life.  Even if I can’t enjoy ice cream:(

But just in case, if you don’t see an update next week you will know I am living in Canada chasing chickens and doing needlepoint by the fire.  Wish me luck with the dairy and grain purge.  I really hope it brings some relief.

W is for Whole30

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From Mother’s Day 2014

 

As I write this I am on day 21 and doing incredibly well. (I’ll be on day 24 when you read this!) This is my fifth or sixth try at the Whole30 and while I have never really completed one I don’t think of them as failures. Each time I have learned something and incorporated a few new foods and better eating habits for the long term into my life.

This time around I really tried to set myself up to succeed. I picked a 30 day span when we had no holidays or camping trips to make it as easy as possible for me. Bought some marinades and sauces from Tessemae’s and placed an order with Wellness Meats.  In addition to planning dinners a week at a time I planned breakfast and lunch too.  All this has really helped.

The most important thing though has been having the right attitude and specific goals.  I am not cheating at all.  I don’t even think about cheating but vowed to simply follow the rules. No “I am going to eat butter instead of ghee after the 30 days so what difference does it make now” sort of thinking.    My main goals are to see how sugar and grains affect my joint pain and moods.  So once I am done I will resume eating cheese and real butter.  But grains and sugar will be done in small amounts with close attention paid as to how I feel. At least that is the plan.

As for how it is going right now,  all my cravings are gone.  My mood does seem more stable and some days I do think the joint pain is less. Sleeping is still an issue but I believe that is due to bad seasonal allergies and perimenopause.  I guess hoping eating a clean diet would make everything better was an unrealistic expectation.  🙂

Another surprise was how well my last two dental checkups went.  I had my semi-annual cleaning two weeks ago and the hygienist again commented on how clean my teeth were.  I have always been good about brushing and flossing but she pointed out my gums aren’t inflamed anymore either.  She only found a little soft plaque along the gum line.  The only thing that has changed is my eating habits. Looks like avoiding grains and sugars is really good for your teeth!

The biggest change is now I only eat because I am hungry.  The pleasure of food has disappeared which is kinda sad.  I make nice meals and keep up the variety of foods but something has changed.  I am not looking forward to eating, it has become a chore. Hopefully this feeling is only temporary.  I am glad that I no longer snack and I really hope that habit sticks.  And while I  am okay with eating only when hungry I really want to look forward to meals again.

I am also feeling a bit disappointed that I am not feeling any “Tiger Blood”.  Could be due to the bad allergies or it could be that my eating habits really aren’t that bad or that what foods I eat don’t negatively affect me.  If that is true then I am happy I can eat everything but sad that I can’t improve any of my ailments via diet.

But I can’t lie, I am looking forward to Mother’s Day and making pancakes with my son for breakfast and having dessert with dinner.  I have one last homemade peach crisp in the freezer that sounds perfect for a warm, sunny Sunday in May!

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Henry and Mudge and the Funny Lunch”  By Cynthia Rylant  was our inspiration.

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Our fruit family is Whole30 Compliant!