I knew January was going to be a transition month. I wasn’t expecting to start out perfect and just continue on. Actually I wanted to start out slow and make gradual but permanent changes. Well, it certainly has started out slow. The first week we were still celebrating the holidays and the second week we were adjusting back to the day to day schedule and there was a lot of holiday food still around. It took me until the end of the month to start to wrap my head around what I needed to do to meet my goals.
Surprisingly I did a really good job with my food tracking. The pages I selected to use in a Bullet Journal work perfectly. The good news is towards the end of the month I started to do a decent job with not snacking. The bad news is I ate 25 cookies over the course of the month. All but five were homemade, but still. And eight chocolate covered pretzels from Trader Joe’s (full size, not minis). And there were a few mentions of chocolates and ice cream. Yikes! Moving on…
I am very pleased with how much yoga I did. It helps that it felt really good. I did yoga 14 days and one day of Qigong.
Eating out at only local restaurants was an epic fail. Will have to try harder and plan better in February.
I am not going to lie, this was a tough month. Exhaustion and moodiness seemed to dominate. I am hoping it is just the peri-menopause spiral. At fifty-one I have to be getting close to full on menopause even though I haven’t even started the twelve month count down yet. I can imagine my body trying to crank out hormones and flooding my system with who knows what and making me feel like shit. Hoping it is not my thyroid though I do wonder how one affects the other. Bottom line, not very happy this month.
But I did do a lot of thinking about what I can change, what I can let go of and what I can add to help myself through this period. I went to bed earlier, napped once in awhile and holed up in my office or bedroom when I needed my space. I decided to simplify dinners, get more help around the house and accept that somedays it is best just to say f*%$ it and retreat to bed with a book and a mug of tea and let everyone else fend for themselves. Yes, I actually did that one Sunday.
I am re-reading Gretchen Rubin’s “The Happiness Project” one month at a time. I don’t want to do it all but be selective as to what fits with my goals. (Look at me being smartly flexible!) For January’s theme of “Boost Energy” I opted to tackle just one goal and address “a nagging task”. I have been doing ten minutes of shred, six days a week. I do feel a sense of relief at making progress on this long overdue project and that does make me feel happier.
I don’t know if this falls under Healthier or Happier (maybe both?) but just out of curiosity I decided to track my television viewing habits. I don’t feel like I watch too much tv but then I grew up in the 70’s when watching tv was what everybody did, at least at night during the winter. Over the course of the month I watched ten movies, six football games, eight basketball games and six shows (multiple episodes of “This is Us” and “The Kid’s Baking Championship). Two days I didn’t watch anything at all. What does this tell me? I have no idea. Any thoughts?
Over and over again I remind myself that this phase of life doesn’t last forever. Everything I have read says most women feel a lot better once in menopause. Energy returns, brain fog lifts, emotions settle and I am hoping for less joint pain. Fingers crossed.