It is no secret that autumn, by far, is my favorite season. I love everything about it! Just recently I realized that I am in the “autumn” of my life:
still colorful, if a bit muted
happy to take things a little slower, but not interested in a full stop
content to go to bed with my book at night
small, quiet moments fill my heart with joy
I love savoring life with all five senses
learning (finally) that it is not hard to be happy
the satisfaction of my life is secure in my heart
To celebrate, today I am treating myself to a trip to the movie theater to see “Downton Abbey”. I have opted to go alone (and skip the pain of spouse and child complaining) and during the day. This leaves the evening free for said spouse and child to plan dinner and cake.
The movie theater is in the mall, I bought a ticket on-line and have my reserved seat. I may stop at the candy store in the mall and pick out a few sweet nibbles. I am a planner, no leaving ticket availability to chance! So I am all set to enjoy my day.
(In case you were wondering I believe the “winter” of my life will start somewhere between 70 and 75 years of age.) I hope you are enjoying whatever season of life you are in!
If one can be homesick for a season then I am homesick for autumn. I know it isn’t “officially” here yet but I even miss the anticipation of fall. There is little for me to love about living here in the desert southwest but this is by far the worst time of the year for me. In the next week or so I’ll break out my leaf garlands and pumpkin decorations and do my best to create autumn inside my home.
But I can’t change the triple digit heat outside. I can’t make it really feel like autumn. I can’t create that crisp, fragrant air or conjure up a maple tree with flaming red leaves outside my window. I can’t wear long sleeves. And that makes me sad.
So today I am going to create autumn in my head and heart. This is a spontaneously generated list of all the things I love about autumn:
the low angle of the sun
chocolate chip pumpkin muffins
the sound of the breeze in the trees
hot tea on a cold morning
the smell of apples and cinnamon
meandering in a corn maze
making pies and applesauce
candles flickering in drafts
wearing long sleeves
cold, gray, rainy days
tomato soup and grilled cheese
that special shade of blue the sky is in October
reading a good book under an afghan
Movies set in autumn (like “Step-Mom” and “You’ve Got Mail” and “Hocus Pocus”)
Thanksgiving (my favorite holiday!)
Looking at the list I realize I can actually experience most of these. And I bought two new short sleeve autumn themed shirts from Life is Good so I can wear “autumn” shirts. I have a camping trip planned in October which should give me a taste of cool air, colorful leaves and the joy of evening campfires and hot tea in the morning. Not a perfect solution but better than nothing.
I always feel a little off balance this time of year. Thanksgiving weekend is over but I am not ready to jump into Christmas. I prefer to wait until 1 December to go all holiday.
It is hard for me to let go of autumn, it is my favorite season. I love the angle of the light and the smells and the leaves.
Christmas is a lot of work, a marathon of busyness. I am already looking at what I can cut from the to-do list, scaling back the baking list and thinking about where I can trim back on the decorating. I look at the calendar and make sure I schedule downtime, movie time, early bedtime.
For this week I am deep breathing and sitting and contemplating. I am focusing on how I want to feel over the next month, not what I want/need to accomplish. I remind myself that I need to enjoy the process. There is no sense in baking/wrapping/decorating if I am hating doing it. I need to keep things manageable.
I need to take care of myself. You need to take care of yourself too. Take some time this week to remember what is important to you. And keep that in your thoughts as you shop, cook, wrap and decorate.
I know when you hear “Veteran’s Day” you expect photos of flags, parades or Veterans. But we celebrate Veteran’s Day by going hiking at Madera Canyon. Since my husband and I are both veterans we feel we can celebrate however we want. And for me the freedom to go find a taste of autumn is what makes me happy. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t remember the sacrifices so many have made for me to have the freedoms that I do. My heart is filled with all those who served, voluntarily and involuntarily over the course of the years. A hike may not be a traditional way to honor those who served but it is my way.
We hiked the Carrie Nation trail. Only three miles but a steep, rocky climb. We got to scuff through leaves!
Nice and chilly and we found some beautiful color.
Another part of the tradition is hot cocoa and cookies at the end of our hike. Always the same cookie, oatmeal with reese’s pieces, more fall color!
Okay, here is a picture of a veteran! I am always curious as to what bloggers look like and if they have a picture how current it is…so here I am! (Photo taken by my guy down below.)
…leaf garlands does it take to make a house look autumnal in the desert southwest?
Let’s start with the kitchen, one above each window and two under the cabinets.
Two in the family room.
One in the dining room.
One at the top of my bedroom closet.
And two in the upstairs hallway overlooking the living/dining room.
And one in front of my south facing office window that would be really hard to take a picture of. That makes a grand total of eleven. So the answer is it takes eleven leaf garlands to bring autumn to the southwest.
I am impatient for autumn. I am always impatient for autumn. Hands down it is my favorite season. Even with Christmas looming I always feel a bit of a pang when I take all those colorful leaves down and pack up the pumpkins.
I also feel a bit off kilter this time of year. It is August, it is hot, it is very much still summer. But school has been in session a few weeks now. That is supposed to mean autumn is peeking around the corner. There should be a hint of frost in the early morning air, a crispness. But it will remain shorts weather well into October and some years even November. My poor brain has a hard time coping with this.
I seem to be doing a fair amount of on-line shopping lately. A replacement for snacking? (I hope not!) I look at my purchases and realize I am looking for autumn. I am excited to be getting ready for my son’s birthday and the upcoming holidays. And by holidays I mean Halloween and Thanksgiving. I have bought pajamas for my son for both holidays. It can be hard to find Thanksgiving jammies which baffles me. What are you supposed to wear while watching the parade and eating pancakes?
I have been buying fun Halloween candy, Ghost Poofs, how cool! A Halloween game and Halloween stampers for prizes at school. Okay, yes I also bought a set of stamps for my son and I to share.
I have also been buying sweaters and long sleeve shirts. What? I know it is crazy. My logic is I am looking for lightweight sweaters/shirts more suited to our pretend winter. And I have been stuck on the color gray for some reason. Six gray shirts I have bought this year. Two are for my sports teams, Miami Heat and the Denver Broncos. Now I am ready for January! My favorite find? A lightweight sweater with birds on it from The Vermont Country Store. Perfect fit, feel, super cute and on clearance! I can’t wait to wear it.
I know it is illogical but I am hoping for an actual cold winter this year. We had the hottest June and wettest July, is the snowiest January that farfetched? At the very least I want to be able to wear long sleeves (without sweating). I have to add that because I could be one of those people who ignore the actual temperature and dress according to the calendar. Honestly I fear that may happen to me this year.
I keep telling myself to be patient. Autumn is still almost a month away according to the calendar. Soon I will be bringing in the autumn totes and decorating away. Soon. I give myself permission to start working with my son to figure out his Halloween costume. (Maybe an elevator, how fun is that!?) And maybe I take a peek at my Gooseberry Autumn cookbook. And paint my toenails orange. It feels the perfect color to transition from late summer to almost autumn. Plan an apple picking trip for Labor Day weekend, yes please. And we have our first U of A football game 2 Sept. Maybe autumn isn’t as far away as it seems.
Normally this time of year I get very homesick for a Northeast fall. This year I am focusing on what I do have as opposed to what I don’t. Though the temperature is still well into the 90’s during the day I have been able to make it feel like autumn (at least inside my head).
There is a hint of coolness in the morning and evenings, enough so that I have resumed taking the dog on longer walks. This has led me to find some autumn color, desert style.
The inside of my house all decorated for autumn.
Football season! College marching bands at halftime are the best!
Pumpkin chili and pumpkin beef stew made in the crockpot. The pumpkin adds a wonderful creamy thick texture.
Taking pumpkin oatmeal spice bars to bowling.
Using wax scents to make my house smell like autumn despite the a/c still being on.
Cooking a pork roast in the crockpot also makes a home smell autumnal.
Working on the outlining of my autumn needlepoint tissue box cover.
Adding a Trader Joe’s harvest tea bag to my pitcher of iced tea.
Trader Joe’s pumpkin soup crackers, with a bit of cream cheese, crazy yummy!
Starting to wear my “fall wardrobe”. Not flannel and sweaters alas, but capris and cropped jeans and autumn colors. I got two new pairs of LL Bean cropped jeans in pale spruce and vintage blue….love them!
In my bullet journal I had written in Wed, Oct 21st as my day off. In ink. Coming back from our marvelous camping trip I didn’t quite feel the need for a day off anymore but it was in my bullet journal. In ink. So I took the day off.
Here is what I did:
three loads of laundry
watched ‘Gilmore Girls’ and ‘Home Fires’
made a batch of reese’s pieces oatmeal cookie dough (my absolute favorite autumn cookie!)
finished reading my library book and started my next Miss Marple novel
I ate a croissant for breakfast while it was raining and had a slice of homemade dutch apple pie (made the day prior) with my son after school, while it was raining
for dinner I made pumpkin sausage penne (interestingly good)
I don’t think I needed a day off so much as I needed a day at home. I wore comfy pants and enjoyed the rain, my house all decorated for fall and now Halloween, good smells and the freedom to do what I wanted. I ended up getting quite a few bits of my imaginary Monday!
It was hard coming back to Tucson after five marvelous days of autumn up in the mountains. The air was crisp and I got to wear long sleeves. We did some hiking and a lot of sitting around the camp fire. I was even blessed with a bit of solitude while my husband and son kayaked and rode bikes. The best part was I slept ten solid hours every night. It was glorious. I didn’t take a lot of pictures, I mostly just soaked everything in.
A quick blog post to cover a couple of topics. As I suspected life has been crazy busy. Now that the flooring is done (and looks fabulous!) I am playing catch up with chores while trying to get the house put back to rights. On top of that we have lots of fun activities going on right now. So while the floor was finished Friday we didn’t get much done over the weekend because of bowling, baseball and pumpkin picking. So here is what else has been going on:
Search for Solitude
I am a persons who needs her alone time. The last three weeks (and next week as well) have given me little opportunity for quiet time to call my own. Without solitude my batteries don’t get recharged. I am feeling very stressed. So much to do it feels like there is not time to simply sit and breathe. My insomnia has kicked in with a vengeance. At least now I am smart enough to recognize the signs but my options for a cure have been limited of late. I need to hold on for another week. I have a multitude of things that have to be done, that can’t be pushed off. But next week at this time I will be camping in the mountains, near a lake, where it will truly be fall. Crisp air, changing leaves, the smell of woodsmoke. It will be worth all the work I have to do beforehand.
Now that the flooring is done, the furniture back in place and everything has been cleaned it is time to start carting all the books back downstairs. Seeing all those books stacked in the hallway gave me pause though. I decided to do one more book purge, this time using the KonMari method. When I read the book “the life changing magic of tidying up” I knew there was no way I would ever cart all those books into one place. And yet, pretty much all my books are now in one area! With everything going on I knew I couldn’t do the whole bunch at once so I divvied them up into categories: cookbooks, Library of America, International Collector’s Library, holiday books etc. I am trying to do one category a day, at a time when I can really focus on the task at hand. I am being thoughtful about my choices. I am thinking about who I am now, letting go of past dreams and setting future goals. I’ll let you know how this turns out.
Taste of Autumn
I have been able to turn the a/c off for now! I wore jeans one day. We have had rain, small hail and cloudy days. The relief from the heat is so welcome. Too bad it isn’t going to last.
Inside my house it is starting to look like autumn. I have put red and orange leaves up everywhere; the irony that I put up leaves while elsewhere they are falling! I have autumn scents in the wax warmers and am eating apples everyday. I bought pumpkin everything at Trader Joe’s and while it is still too warm to drink hot tea at least my iced tea is in a fall themed glass.
And I have begun making more autumn- ish meals. One night we had cranberried pork chops , glazed acorn squash and yams. Saturday I am throwing an autumn beef stew into the crock pot for after the football game. Of course after sitting under the broiling sun for four hours with temps in the 90s we may not want a hot meal, but dammit after football in October that is what you are supposed to eat! I told my husband we will just have to crank the a/c back up.
After school today we are putting up the outside Halloween decorations. There is a lovely breeze blowing outside along with some clouds blowing around helping to add to the autumn feel. This weekend I have a U of A football game to look forward to and my son’s 8th birthday. But right now I have more books to sort and shelve.