More than twenty years ago I took the meyers-briggs test. For some reason the result is one of those random bits my brain has retained through the years. I turned out to be an INTJ: Introvert, Intuitive, Thinking and Judging. Yup, that’s me, except for the introvert I thought. I figured it was a mistake.
The introvert part surprised most of my friends too. When I was is the military I was pretty social. Alcohol helped (a lot). I never thought again about being an introvert. A few weeks ago I retook a version of the meyers-briggs test and I came up an INFJ. What? Now the Thinking/Feeling aspect was close to fifty-fifty, but the Introvert was like 75%. Hmmm.
I googled introvert characteristics. All twenty-three were me!!
And then the penny dropped. I am an introvert. Duh! That explains so much about my choices, actions and reactions over the years. So many things make sense now.
It has been a relief to realize I am not some sort of hermit or recluse wannabe. Or maybe I am. I am simply wired to not just enjoy solitude but need solitude. Quietness has always been my friend. Sometimes I wonder if I am the last person in the world who can drive alone in the car without the radio on.
Inability to make small talk, hating large gatherings, feeling exhausted after the Guild meetings are just a few examples of my introvertedness. All those family gatherings in my childhood where I took a book and found a quiet corner? Ahhh.
So now that the fact that I am an introvert has penetrated to my conscious brain what does this mean? How can I use this new found knowledge to improve my life? Um. I think “T” time has been a good start. It has been a bit hit or miss these last weeks, maybe now I will keep it higher on the priority list. Maybe when I am worried that my head is going to explode (thank you menopause) I can simply retreat to my office or bedroom and close the door. Perhaps, after an over filled weekend I can do a retreat on Monday. Ensure I spend quiet time alone working on one of my many projects. As much time as I need.
I know I will stop apologizing for wanting peace and quiet because it is not a want but a need. And my needs are important too.
What do you do to support your needs as an introvert? Sometimes I wonder just how much I can retreat from the world and still remain a functioning part of my family and society. As with much of my life happiness seems to be about finding the right balance. Right now I am going to go sit quietly for a few minutes and enjoy a spot of peace and quiet. I hope you have a great Monday!!