This was a good month as far as learning about my eating habits. I am feeling a tiny bit hopeful that I am going to be able to make the forever changes that I need to be healthy. But I have to admit to an epic fail for going 30 days without added sugar. I made it two weeks and then the raging hormones kicked in. Damn I wish menopause would just come on already! On to some specifics.
I have been wrestling with myself about how healthy is healthy enough. I am trying to ditch the all or nothing mentality I seem to have about everything in life. The reality is there are going to be days or situations that will make sticking to a plan impossible. The trick is not to let one bad meal ruin a day or one bad day ruin a whole week. And I can control just how “bad” a meal is to some degree.
The first half of the month I tracked when I ate and how I felt before and after as far as hunger went. The second half of the month I tracked how much I enjoyed what I ate. I learned meals aren’t my problem. I seldom overeat and for the most part enjoy what I make at home. When I did mindlessly snack I really didn’t enjoy it. The problem is eating when I am not really hungry. This happens on weekends when we are doing family things and stop to eat because everyone else is hungry. Dinner time can also be difficult, I cooked it, everyone else is eating so it feels weird to skip dinner with the family (though I do eat smaller portions). Listening to my own needs will continue to be a work in progress.
I used a number for how hungry/full I felt and a letter for why I ate for the first half of the month. The second half I used a 1-5 scale as to how much I enjoyed what I ate.
This month I did a much better job eating at local restaurants when we ate out. It was easier to make healthier choices and I enjoyed the food more. I have noticed that fast food and most junk food doesn’t have the same appeal as I eat better tasting, healthier food more often.
For April I am going to concentrate on really focusing on my food when I eat. This is a huge change that I am having difficulty with but I am going to persevere. In my re-reading of “Food Rules an Eater’s Manual” by Michael Pollan I am into the section about how to eat. Perfect timing to reinforce all those things I know I should be doing.
Feet to the fire: Weight on 1 March – 147.8. Weight on 2 April – 144.0! I did yoga 19 times which with my shoulder I thought was pretty good. Still doing an excellent job keeping my food log, really unhappy about all the red circles (candy or sweets) though. Can’t seem to win against the hormones.
I decided it was time to do a family activity that I got to choose so we went to a photo exhibition down at the U of A Center for Creative Photography. They have the archives for Ansel Adams and display a selection of photos. It is a small gallery with no admittance fee so after lunch (and after my son’s bowling league on Saturday morning) we went to check it out. I enjoyed it and my son tolerated it. Since it was a small display we were there less than an hour and afterwards we took advantage of a cool cloudy day to walk around the campus and explore a bit. My only regret is I didn’t take my camera, there were some lovely sights on the campus. Next time.
I have been feeling a little guilty about the time I “waste” coloring. The above picture of buttons is one I have been working on quite awhile interspersed with coloring pictures for Easter and Spring. I have found when I don’t take those moments to sit and color I really miss it. It is my form of meditation and I find the day goes much smoother when I take the time in the morning to sit quietly for a few minutes and empty my mind. I had to remind myself it is not a “waste” of time but a good way to start and end the day.
Still fighting the hormones and depression. Nothing seems to work these days so I keep slogging away reminding myself that it will get better, to be patient and take it one day, one hour at a time. And that it is perfectly okay to take a nap in the afternoon, no prescription needed! Much better than eating a bunch of junk food that I don’t really want. Of course I was able to find a loophole, ha ha!
Food Rule #45 “Eat all the junk food you want as long as you cook it yourself.” – Michael Pollan
Hello turtle brownies stashed in the freezer 🙂